i feel guilty.
because i never really go on this blog anymore. :/
my other link, if anyone is interested- is, www.thepantiebandit.tumblr.com

this was my original tumblr. when things started getting really bad for me last year, i looked to the tumblr community for support. however, following me on tumblr were people i didn’t feel comfortable knowing personal things about me and what i was going through. so i came here, and created a new blog and completely rejecting my old one. lately i’ve been trying to keep up with both, and i’m going to continue to try to do so until either or falls into my lap for the time being. sick with me! 
OH, by the way.. i have mono and i’m basically dying over my spring break -_- life is great. 

fear-n-faith:

this is perfect

sometimes i wonder how i let myself get so backwards.
how i literally feel that i had a better head on my shoulders, that i knew more about myself and those around me last year.
i wonder how i let myself get so lost. when i used to know what direction i was headed in, and figuring out what i wanted was second nature.
i think of how i used to know better, and now it really seems like i know nothing at all.
this time last year i was a different person on the inside, and the time has gone by so fast i haven’t even noticed the changes. what seems like “going with the flow,” which has always been my outlook- has become destructive. i can’t make my own decisions anymore.